I started a post back in December, long before Christmas break. I sat down at my computer on Tuesday, convinced that it was time to get it done...time to tie everything together and finally hit the orange, ever-daunting "publish" button that stares at me from its perch at the top of my screen. However, while reading back through, editing, and adding on, I had a feeling that it will be a very long time before this story is ready to be published--even in such an unprofessional setting as a blog. The Lord is teaching me to wait. And this piece is one of those things I'm waiting for...perhaps because it's too big for a blog post. Maybe it won't be one day. But maybe it will. Maybe it will be something more fitting for (dare I say it...) a book. You truly never know.
But I still need to write this because Lauren Chandler's words are too good not to share. On Tuesday, I read her newest post about Hannah. Lauren writes, "So, [The Lord] ordained a waiting for Hannah. Not just for her son Samuel but for her soul as well. He knew the best thing for her heart was to come to the end of itself." Don't you just love the words ordained a waiting? The dictionary uses the word "prescribe" in describing how "ordain" functions when it is performed by God. According to my MacBook Dictionary, to prescribe is to recommend (a substance or action) as something beneficial. Could it be that God has ordained a waiting for me? And how could it ever be beneficial for my little impatient self who has no perspective regarding the grand plan for my life? Why would I ever need to wait?
The same day, the Lord put Psalm 34:8 on my heart in a big way. You know what it says?
"Taste and see that the Lord is good."
It occurred to me that this is a concept you have to believe from the start. As you wait for the Lord and wait for His will to prevail, you have to know and believe with all your heart that He is good. You have to know it before you find out the results. Why? Because, as my devotional said yesterday, He is a God who gives and gives and gives. Because this holds true regardless of what happens.
So here I am, waiting. Waiting until God decides that I'm ready for whatever gifts He has in store. Waiting until He has increased my faith in Him to such an extent that His goodness is all that matters. As I wait to find out if I was accepted to my major or not...as I wait for financial peace...as I wait for relational healing...as I wait to really write about waiting...as I wait for God's plan for my love life to unfold...as I wait for my summer plans to come together...as I wait for a clearer direction as to my future...as I wait...and wait...and wait... I must relish this time, tasting, seeing, believing wholeheartedly that He is good.
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